my situation
I'm 25 and over weight ive allways said to myself that i want to lose weight but never rearly had much to motivate me to lose it
then about two years ago i went to an interview for my dream job as a casino tech on a cruse ship and i got offered the job
every one was so happy for me and it was good news but there was one big massive down side
what i didn't no was that you have to pass a medical to get on ship to prove that your not a high medical risk. keeping your staff low risk is kinda a no brainer when your on a ship that can be miles from anywhere and limited medical facilities on-board
the job offer was what they call open ended there are allways difftent posts opening and once i am able to pass the medical i can put my name for the next available post
now i am asthmatic but this has been under control for years and i hardly ever use my medication so this is a minor problem that would not stop me from getting on ship
what will stop me is my weight. when i got the job offer i was 22 odd stone thats over 300lb and for all you kilo people that over 136 kilo
to pass the medical i have be below 30 on the BMI rating now i'm not going to pretend to understand what or how the system works but using on-line stuff i found out with my age and height to get a BMI rating of below 30 i would need to weigh around the 200lb that 45 kilo a third of my weight i need to lose
faced with these massive numbers my first reaction was despair i had my dream job and it was snatched away from me then i realized that i've all ways wanted something to help motivate me to lose weight and could you think of anything more motivating than your dream job
so i started a "diet" basically tried cutting out the bad stuff and it started working in them first 6 months i lost near two stone 24lb nearly 11 kilo i was so happy and proud and in high spirits but that was over a year ago and my weight loss stopped i started getting down my life started getting affected and ended up going through some rearly bad touth times started gaining it again falling back into old habits not bing active snacking eating and drinking crap
but about 4 months ago thanks to a new job and some real good friends i started losing the weight again and i have lost the weight i gained but now at the end of that jobs contract i was faced with the weight loss stopping and in classic stupid me it got down and started back into the old habits and was very negative about everything and in doing this lost those close friends that had helped me so much
so thats me right now i think i've hit rock bottom or i hope i have but i am determined not to gain that weight back and continue on this big downer that has all ready lost me so much and i no it will only lead to losing my last hope that dream job
so this is an attempt to keep myself motivated focused and keep losing that weight so i can rebuild my life on a cruse ship far away from where i am now or at least thats the plan
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